Well I'm another step closer to graduation. I finished classes last week and I have 3 finals tommorrow which spells the end to my last Spring semester here in State College PA. While I thought last week was one of the all time worst as far as workload goes, tonight may take the cake as the worst night ever of my college career. I have 3 final exams tommorrow and I can't bring myself to get into the study mode to compound these academic issues, I wasted half my day getting my car fixed this afternoon and then when I was at the gym tonight I got this feeling like I had just given blood and I almost passed out. In a last ditch effort to get some work done I got out of my apartment and headed down to the diner for study hall in the back but even here I'm finding it difficult to focus/care. I just keep browsing the Israel blog scene and checking for updates on all the Israeli news sites. Anyway, Israel is constantly on my mind. I wake up thinking about my Aliyah, I daydream about it, and I fall asleep to thoughts of warm mediteranean breezes. This whole waiting game is a little annoying but It's also pretty frustrating when the people you love keep reminding you of all the things you will miss.
So anyway, most of my friends are graduating and I'll be stuck in school all summer. It's actually a little more upsetting than I expected. While I'm dying to get out of here and move on with my life, there are some people that have become integral parts of my life and I'm struggling with the idea that our relationships will most certainly change. I guess this is all part of growing up but I wish transitions didn't have to come with so much emotion.
I'm sure I've lemented enough and I'm going to try to cut back on the complaining in the future but I just had to get some thoughts out that have been bouncing around in my head. As you can all tell by now, I don't have any big news or info on my Aliyah but I will be sure to update when something if anything happens.
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leaving the people that you love is probably the ONLY negative thing about making aliyah with lasting effects. hang in there now and during the summer, enjoy everyone, but realize that when you come here, you'll become close to many people very quickly. i've only been in israel for 7 months, and i can honestly say that leaving israel now would be just as difficult as leaving the states was, in terms of people. good luck with finals!
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